like i said...

soon, i will be the last person...

i will change!!!

"If A is a success in life, then A equals x plus y plus z. Work is x; y is play; and z is keeping your mouth shut."

       All my life, i have had countless of reasons & opportunities to change myself, but i didn't do it. Like they said, Where there's a will, there's a way; and so are excuses! I was afraid of these changes, i was afraid everything might change or what if those changes are wrong? But i was so wrong, so i was never move forward & always stuck with my lame-self...
    Then, a few months ago i saw a qoute form Albert Einstein, he said " Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new ", but i still don't have the reason, a real reason for me to change myself to be someone i can proud of & looking for the answer within myself & with the help of internet...

     So first, Make the decision to stop being average. This is one of the most important steps to success in life.  You may know about setting goals but many people overlook the importance of this first step.  You need to make the decision, once and for all, to stop letting yourself be just another average Joe.  This is the time to decide if you are really serious about being successful in anything you do.  Because this kind of success requires a mindset that is not that of the rest of the heard.  It requires the ability to think and act outside the box and be willing to make the changes necessary to reaching your goals.  So it is now time to pull away from the heard and start thinking for yourself.


      Second, i need to realize my dreams. But this will be hard, i am not some one who had something i dream of, i am just an average man with just a normal needs, but then i remember one thing, when i was still my high school, my teacher once said " never let your parents cry because of your failure but for oneself success!!! " My parents who never give up on me, they are my only supporter, they are someone who always pray for me in their prayer & someone who never tired of giving me motivations & advices, i really wanted them to see that they that i had become someone, i don't wanna make them worry about me anymore!!! I really wanted them to feel that they were successful in raising me up!! Then there's my girlfriend, who now become my back-bone, she's my cheerleader & she's too my motivation in becoming successful .

      The thirdstep is Setting my Goals. I wanna have good job, a job that i like & so i can get money. Then i wanna help my parents with the money i have & save some of it for my future. Further more, i wanna buy a ride, because it's easier to go anywhere & sure i wanna have my own house, i am not asking for a bungalow or castle, i just need a shelter for myself & ofcourse, get marry with my girlfriend & have 2 children & so i become a perfect man!!!

      Then the fourth step, it is how to keep myself stay motivated & sure it will be the hardest part among these steps. I must keep the pace, i need to learn the skill of keeping that fire going inside me. Without this fuel of desire and a clear resolve i’ll be dead in the water in a week. i need to find what works for me and stick with it & whenever i feel i start to fade or i am start questioning why am i doing what i am doing, i will just need to go back to that pad of paper and re-read my description of my dreams. This will often re-kendal the fire and get you back on track.

     Finally the last step is to enjoy the process. Just as important as the first 4 steps, this one requires little effort but is often missed & notice that I didn’t say, enjoy yourself when you reach your dream. You will never be happy because there will be a new one right around the corner. Success in life is not about reaching a final destination but instead it’s the process of constantly upgrading your life to a better version.  So, if you are just grazing with the heard, I won’t blame you for feeling down.  But if you are in the process of pursuing the life that you desire for yourself and your family than I hope that you find yourself satisfied RIGHT NOW as well as in the future.

p/s sometimes it is hard, but there's always next time, we're human after all & no one is perfect, so it's okay to fail, just try again!! Remember, " he who wills the end, wills the means! "

the last night...

     tonight will be the last night i am in Penang, i know deep inside me, there is something telling me to hate this place! Yeah, maybe it's because i was too tired look after my nieces, the kids were too hyper, they can't even sit quietly for a minute, they always jumping around, running & do something that will wake the demon inside you.
     But i can't get angry at them at all, i just laughed & because i know they were just a kid after all, they don't even know what is wrong or right, they were so naive, innocent & cute, so all i can do is to tell them every time if they are doing something wrong with full of love. Oh god, i am sure i am going to miss this place, I will miss to wake up every morning to make them breakfast, i will miss to feed them, i will miss their laughed, i will miss them so much!!!i will cherish it forever in my memory. yes, i will pray for them always!!!

 here some pictures of my nieces...

" sayerah baheer bte Abdul Azizam Hakim, she was born at 7 sept 2007. "

" Sayerah with her mom.. "

" Sayerah she got a love shape birth mark on her cheek. "

" sophia Bashir bte Abdul Azizam Hakim "

" Sophea Bashir with her grandfather aka my father.."

" why so serious Piya "

" chela & piya "

p/s... every child deserves to be love...

i will wait her...

   It was 9.50 pm, i am waiting for my girlfriend to get back from her work. So i just laying on my bed & wait for her. Her shift ends at 10 pm tonight, so it's just a matter of time before she come back, because it is only takes about 5 minutes or less from her work place to her hostel.
    As times went by, she still hasn't back yet, she usually will sms or call. Maybe she was busy, she also told me that she got meeting with her apprentice tonight. But i feel so sleepy tonight, i don't get much sleep in these several days, so i closed my eyes for awhile & i hold my handphone in my hands so if she massege or call me, i will know.
   It was 10.30 pm but there were no message or a call from her, so i turned myself to look at my laptop, there she was buzzing my yahoo messenger, i was so happy then i buzzed her back & she invited me for a video call & i accepted it, but my head still dizzy & i felt so sleepy, so i lay for a few seconds, then she got mad, maybe because i wasn't paying attention to her or to treat her like i did usually. But it's okay, because she didn't know that i was so sleepy, so i am not mad at her at all because i love her so much & she loves me too...

Maybe i am too old for sports, i mean my spirit... yohohoho...

    Recently, i check my weight, it was 76kg & i think, this weight scale must be broken or jealous of me. So i went to look at myself in the mirror, oh i got one pack, i don't really care, because some people said " less is more ", then i turned myself for a side view, wow! my tummy is hell bigger than Beyonce's ass, i am sexy than beyonce!!!
    Urgh!!! I really don't know when was the last time i work-out, maybe it was 2 or 3 years ago. i am surprised because my weight never changed when i was 16 until 21 years old, it was always like 63-65kg. I should control my diet & get more exercise.

p/s : i am 23 years old now by the way...

twitter???

Currently, i am playing twitter where the twelas shout n sharing their thought by posting it on Twitter, i really don't get it first why people like to play it, so then i tried & yes it is hard, i really don't know how people always post things anything in their mind, it's funny because they seems to share everything in their mind or what they were doing like in every seconds, minutes,hours & so on. But it was fine though & nothing wrong with it. So then i try to be just like them, try to feel what it's like to twittering but i seems not quite to like it... hehe because i am certainly not the type who can share everything, from what i ate, what i do, how i feel & bla3...

so if u guys play twitter mind to follow me? if yes, this is my twitter...
Email : msi6275@hotmail.com or just search for msikopite.

My Days at Penang...

it has been 26 days & 27 night i stayed in penang... yeah, it was fun here to take care of my nieces & sister... this place doesn't changed so much than 4 years ago. yes there were 2 or 3 new buildings, new people & the kids i used to teach already big enough & taller than me ( despite, i am not so tall... ) & don't seem to remember me, but it's ok coz i don't give a f**k at all.. thats life, times change, peoples change. 

 The Penang Bridge.

Now, i already have my license to drive, so my brother-in-law whom i prefer to call " tn. aziz " asked me to drive everywhere he wanted because just in case something happen i know where to go but tn Aziz often scolded me because maybe i drive a little bit like grandmother, but the truth is the road here in Penang is ntohing but shit!! the drivers were like drunk people & seems in a rush, so then i become nervous thats the real reason why drive like that. But yeah, what can i do? So i don't give a shit about it, because now i got the experience the feeling driving here in Penang & so the famous Penang Bridge also the best & great experience, the Penang bridge is the longest bridge here in Malaysia, it is 13.5 km in which 8.4 km from it across the sea i yes, i drove across it maybe like 4 or 5 times since i was here. 

 Rojak Tonggek & Pasembur.

Penang was so famous with it food & beverage, because the foodis so mixed with influences form the malay, chinese, indian & thai cuisine that it becomes unique to the island itself. I am myself is a food lover, maybe thats why i hardly to lose some weight, anyhow there were so many foods that we don't have in Sabah, so if you guys a food lover & wanted to try something different just come to Penang. I already eat some of the food here & yes now i know why people in semenanjung bigger than us in Sabah hehe, it is because the foods here are so delicious. One of the most interesting food that i remember the most was Pasembur & rojak tonggek, it wasn't that special but it just unique & simple but it was kind of interesting the way it was served. Pasembur is one of the hawker food, it is a food provided by the various ingredient & sauce. I think it is kind of snack or an appetiser, however ordering a large might prove to be very filling & Rojak tonggek is also one of the hawker food, it's just a regular kind of rojak but you can eat it first & pay after you finished but the interesting part is there were no chair provided, you need to eat it while u were standing & share the souce, i know it's kind of awkward sharing one bowl of sauce together with strangers & you might to think the sauce might be contaminated.

Pasembur

Pasembur ingredient 

how you eat it.

there are lots of choices.

So, there are few days more to go before i go back to sabah, it is kind of sad because there so many things to do here but so little times, but it's okay because maybe someday i will go back here & explore everything here in Penang. Okay, thats all for now.